I wrote this song originally in 2022 while I was living in Texas… The way I write is real-time and by ear usually. That goes for lyrics as well. I play the song and I just say what comes up for me. I didn't realize until recently that this song was my speaking the truth of myself into the void. For decades I suffered from very difficult to treat depression… Or so I thought. This song lit the match that made me want to try to work towords something different and it took me a while to get around to it…

But I finally feel inspired.

What I thought was depression, and subsequently, why it was so difficult to treat, wasn't depression at all. There was nothing wrong with my brain chemistry. I was suffering from long term CPTSD and a decent case of autistic burnout. Working through one, helped relieve the other and while I'm not massively different on the other side… I do feel inspired.

It seemed like the right time to go back to the beginning with this voice. The one I speak with now.