Release Information
Primary Artist: Jonathan Hadley
Release Date: 2025-11-05
ISRC: CBF8B2501198
Record Label: Abrasive Monologues
Writing Credits
Musical Composition:
J E Jackson – 01148658525 – BMI
Lyrics:
J E Jackson – 01148658525 – BMI
Production Credits
Production Credits
Mixing: Jonathan Hadley
Mastering: Jonathan Hadley
Producer(s):
Jonathan Hadley
About this track
Dust is the sound of walking back into a place that used to feel like safety and finding only decay waiting for you. It’s the moment I realized that home didn’t stay frozen in time… it rotted in my absence, just like the parts of me that were raised inside it.
The song moves between sung grief and spoken honesty, building a picture of a house that’s become a shrine to everything I lost… childhood, simplicity, and the parts of me that never got the chance to speak. The dust on the walls isn’t just dust… it’s the sediment of years where no one cared enough to preserve what mattered.
Lyrics
So I told myself I could
Go home again
I was wrong
The purest parts of who I
Am are covered in dust
On the walls
[Spoken]
I never really expected her to truly understand why this affects me so badly. Why walking into this house absolutely guts me but it's because it's a temple to rot where I used to have a life. I don't think it's that much to understand.
All this time I spend awake
It's more than I can take
Leave all my stitches
Bleeding
Cut me while I'm awake
Cut me while I'm awake
All this dust that I'm
Breathing
Eats away at me
It eats away at me
[Spoken]
Some of the things I hold dearest in this life I can't touch because they're contaminated. they're lost... To the rot... To the dust. There's not a damn thing I can do about it because I'm not enough to push all of that back. Guess what else is lost in rot... me. I'm lost... in the rot... in the dust. I had to write a eulogy to my own damn childhood.
All this time I spend awake
It's more than I can take
Leave all my stitches
Bleeding
Cut me while I'm awake
Cut me while I'm awake
All this dust that I'm
Breathing
Eats away at me
It eats away at me
[Spoken]
I get it. I get it a lot better than you think I do. Dad left and instead of figuring out who you were without him... You started to fill that void with stuff... You could have filled it with me, with people. I guess I just wasn't all that important. I'll always be Abrasive though.
All this time I spend awake
It's more than I can take
Leave all my stitches
Bleeding
Cut me while I'm awake
Cut me while I'm awake
All this dust that I'm
Breathing
Eats away at me
It eats away at me