All my life I lived in the shadow of my father… Not because anyone wanted me to live up to his standard, but because they didn't. He wasn't a great man. He was troubled after the murder of his mother as teenager, and three tours in vietnam. He didn't know how to fix the broken pieces of himself. Hindsight being 2020, it is also very possible he suffered from several forms of mental illness, which are now showing up in his children. He died when I was 5, but was gone long before that, and I never had the chance to get to know him. There are parts of this song that I mean, and there are parts of this song that through the years, I've learned that I don't mean. As I've gotten older, and suffered from my own mental health issues, I've come to understand him better, and I'm less angry about those things now than I was then. No matter my level of understanding, his family only partly accepts us, because we're his children… The sins of the father I guess. He was a true black sheep, which I guess makes us gray. Color is a chronology, and each song is representative of how I felt at a given time in my life, not necessarily representative of how I feel now.