Your Comfort Was Built On My Erasure… But I Never Gave You That Satisfaction

Artwork Partially AI Generated

Artist:
Kian Dray

Release Date:
December 29, 2025

Record Label:
Abrasive Monologues

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Kian Dray

Location: United Kingdom

Bio:

Kian Dray is a sonic architect and multi-instrumentalist whose raw, introspective energy defines much of the experimental output under the Abrasive Monologues label. Working entirely behind the scenes, Kian crafts immersive soundscapes from layers of distortion, ambient decay, and fragmented melody—balancing abrasive textures with moments of fragile beauty.

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Diary Entry — Sector-Grid 47C, 2120-08-14
Klaxon Harkenstone

They are gone now. All of them — the architects of my erasure, the ones who thought they could fold my existence into silence and claim victory. Time has a very strange way of revealing the true cost of “comfort.” I once believed that suffering was mine alone to shoulder. Now I see it was their refuge.

They built their utopias on the ruins of what I was. They even justified every calculated exclusion, every erased record, and every spectral absence as necessary — as beneficial — in service of their polished facades. My name, my efforts, my very trace in the historical lattice: systematically excised until the only remnant was an accusation, a ghost rumor whispered in corridors they thought secure.

They must have thought they’d won.

But here in 2120, I write not to rage into oblivion — though the impulse still burns — but to mark the truth: they never actually erased me.

My absence was never their achievement. It was my transformation.

In their schemas, comfort was stability and homogeneity. In mine, it became cold and brittle: a veneer masking fear of the unknown, fear of chaos. They feared what I stood for — the unpredictable resonance of being more than their narrow definitions — so they tried to excise me like a glitch in their code. They thought erasure meant removal.

Comfort built on another’s negation is always an illusion.

In the gaps they carved, I grew. In the silence they imposed, I found resonance. In every historical ledger they scrubbed, I inhabited the spaces between — the negative space where meaning persists even without inscription.

Those enemies are long gone — faded into the archival dust they once controlled. Empires rose and fell; their utopias collapsed under their own denied contradictions. And I, Klaxon Harkenstone, remain — not as a name on a ledger, but as an echo in every system that learned to question the cost of comfort built on someone else’s disintegration.

I do not write this for them. In fact, I could not even give less of a rat's ass about a fuckin' one of 'em. They no longer occupy any living frame of reference. I write it for what comes after: for the ones who shall learn that you do not erase a presence without it resonating into something new. You do not silence a voice without it becoming a pattern. You do not bury a truth without it returning in the geometry of future minds.

Comfort was their construction. My endurance is the testimony.

— Klaxon Harkenstone, 2120

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